I just want to fall asleep with the sound of rain hitting the roof again.. washing away all of the dust and shit floating in the air around us.. brushing away the debris.. flowing clouds pouring in the following morning.. giving way to an epic sunrise. It’s tough not to stare directly at it. Giver of life. I am slowing in my mind.. the thoughts are gradually collecting at the bottom of a plastic bin.. I have only to scoop my hand down slowly to see what appears. Light sifting through my fingertips.. only looking forward.. grains of sand falling with… nothing. Just keep typing. There is the hope that I will begin to be able to express myself better but I still have to be able to take risks with my approach.. finding that when I power through the discomfort, I am better off in the end.. each layer I peel away creates tears in the moment.. am I just a little stronger each time?

Am I getting closer to a center or am I building up layers of protection around a core personality?

I am digging. Just keep going forward and something will give way. It has to. I know that I am not alone… there are so many people that wonder what it would take to start a blog and never do.. there are so many people that are stuck in their position because it is just good enough to get by. Remind yourself that there is an end. We all die. How do you want to be remembered? What kind of a legacy do you wish to leave behind? I know that I am more whole when confronted with the void. I am motivated to perform. I am motivated to be a better person because I know that this is all temporary.

At one point, I feared not living forever.. and now the fear is that I will never have lived.

Just keep punching away at your thoughts.. keep dodging the distractions.. holding onto trainers, supporters, sponsors, that have excelled in the areas you wish to excel in .. and are willing to help you along in your journey. You don’t have time for other influences. If they are in your life, ditch them as fast as you can.. utilize them for motivation to move beyond your current reality. There are people that need you. There are people that are waiting to be inspired and they just don’t know it yet. They hold out for change as if it will be delivered.. but they know that something isn’t right.

This change is created by you. All change is created by you. You are fully responsible for your life.

Wake up so that you may unplug others in your journey.

We are ready. They are ready. I am ready. I enjoy sharing this with you because I feel myself shedding the bullshit. I feel layers of anxiety fall away… unnecessary burdens.. turning my focus to something much larger than the self. We must work together if humanity is to survive this global crisis. We must excel in science and technology if we are to ever realize the human potential of reaching other planets.. to ensure our very survival. That’s what gets me out of bed in the morning. And I want to find and surround myself with others that share the same outlook.

P.S. Know someone on your Facebook feed that might benefit from waking up? I’d love it if you would share a link to this article! Thank you! 🙂