Running out of time. Beautiful Destinations running through my mind.. I’m lost in this cycle but ready to break free. I’ve found a way out for other people.. not just me. I have to be inspired by the direction that I walk.. I have to feel motivated and loving in my moves and the way that I talk.. that is the only way that I could ever wish to reach the people around me.. the only way that I can ever be the authentic human that I so desperately strive to be…

I don’t really know what I am doing… I am being pulled along with my intuition.. following these feelings like a summer crush.. but the burning is real.. the passion is limitless.. and it is lasting through time… it keeps building and the momentum is simply gaining little by little each day…

I am not lost like I once was.. the stress and anxiety are still relevant to the person that I am aiming to shake free.. the image of myself that I am working to uphold .. spending too much extra energy on something that I am not… because I know who I am at my core when I don’t think about it too much. That person flows naturally to the surface.. I don’t need to fight with it.. to wrestle with my mind.. because there is only one team.. and we are all on it.. al energy is on the same team.. there is no opposite.

Burning to describe my thoughts and emotions through these freewrites.. writing to an invisible listening. Someone on the other end of the phone that sits and just breaths back.. terrifying… but I have to press forward and search for authenticity… I can not feel the pains that I create in my own mind because they are just a distraction.. we create these anxieties and they are wearing thin.. they are old.. they deserve to be released…

I am slowing… I must learn to pick up my vibrations…at a higher level… spread love.. spread imagination.. spread thoughts that inspire and motivate… but being mindful to care for myself in the process. What is going on in the world today… it is a simple reflection of the self.. not the other way around… I’ve found that a bad day often opens the door to unfortunate insights about world events.. as if I have direct control of the environment that I create on all levels, regardless of distance… distance means nothing.. we are all stuck in our own heads.. playing powerful games that we feel the stress and anxiety for… not realizing that our thoughts have power beyond our imagination… they have power beyond our imagination.. and you, you have the power to control your mind… you have the power to control the thoughts that flow freely in the subconscious.. take control and show yourself love first… take the time to sit in the stillness.. you deserve it… I deserve it. I can’t tell you how much it means to me that you would listen to these words. Thank you.